Teresa Giudice Should Have Thrown Melissa Gorga’s Words Right Back at Her

Throughout the airing of season 4, Melissa waited for Teresa to publish her Bravo blog for each episode before she would publish her own. Teresa needs to do that to Melissa during the airing of season 5, and then take Melissa’s words and throw them right back at her.

The following are highlights, in chronological order, taken from Melissa Gorga’s season 4 Bravo blogs, and altered as if Teresa wrote them. In red are the words I added so that the sentence would appear to have been written by Teresa; Melissa’s words with the strikethrough should be ignored when reading the quotes — I left them in so you could go back and read what Melissa actually wrote.

When I talk it out and forgive and let something go, I truly mean it.

I was done with all the petty games and nonsense, and Teresa Melissa said she was too. So with that in mind, yes, I was a little confused when the cookbook came out and she threw a dig at me. I was a little taken aback, because I thought we decided not to go down that road, but I decided to let this pass and not make a big deal of it.

It does make me think maybe Teresa Melissa had no intention of moving on and was just being nice for the cameras.

As the season goes on, you see how we did let it go and decided to move forward and keep trying to just enjoy being together and have his sister and her family my brother and his family in our life.

I was trying to put the issues between Teresa Melissa and I behind us, as I thought we both agreed to do, but I started to realize and now can definitely say after watching these past few episodes and reading her blogs that’s not at all what Teresa Melissa was trying to do.

I feel like Teresa Melissa is constantly looking for any reason she can to say I’m a bad wife sister, SIL, aunt, mother and friend. I honestly can’t help but feel that she is projecting the issues in her life onto mine. Does she think that if my marriage goes badly hers will get better?

Does she think that if she puts the negative attention on me then it will not be on her?

Teresa Melissa obviously hasn’t learned her lesson because in last week’s blog she continues to talk about the rumors she hears about my marriage.

She won’t let up and I don’t know how she can look at herself in the mirror at this point.

We are all trying really hard to move past the spot we are at and start enjoying each other.

Remember, when these episodes were shot last summer, I was trying to move on from the horrible place Teresa Melissa and I had been.

Regardless of what Teresa Melissa says about our relationship before RHONJ, there was a time that BOTH of us were being very vindictive to each other. I won’t deny that, but since joining she joined the show, I haven’t taken opportunities to throw her troubles in her face.

Teresa Melissa holds grudges like no other, and I can’t control that. She has to decide her family is important enough to her and let it go.

What’s starting to confuse me now is that you will start to see some pretty amazing times between me and Teresa Melissa.

What you will see if you pay attention is that Teresa Melissa is trying to take me down every chance she gets.

I am trying to move on, but quite honestly she is making it impossible.

I’m a smart girl and I can figure out why she is doing this. Teresa Melissa likes to be the center of attention. Be beneath her or get the hell out of her way.

This is what life is about, being with your closest friends and family.

I know I’m never going to get her to totally change the way she treats me, but as long as she backs off my marriage and my brother’s relationship with his side of the family, we can do this.

I’m going to give her the chance to prove it.

I’m going to be optimistic and put my all into the relationship. I really do want it to work. I feel like we are both only I am really going to try and fix this.

I think it is very obvious that I have never been the problem here. She makes me the problem and she constantly blames me for everything. I guess she doesn’t want the world to think that it’s her and her family or her relationship with her brother who are trying to turn my brother and my friends against me that is failing.

It was great to see Teresa and Joe Joe and I getting along at the party. See how easy it is without Melissa’s interference? Just enjoying each other! And then Melissa had to take another dig I loved being able to play with Teresa about the sprinkle cookies!

I just want a happy, normal relationship with her so that we can get our families together. Is that so hard? It’s not for me!

I’m happy Teresa Melissa is getting to the point where she is realizing that life is too short to worry about the petty things. I hope she is going to start having a more positive attitude about my marriage, my career music, and my kids, and just stop overanalyzing me and everything I do. It must be draining for her to worry about me all day and worry about how we are living our life.

I would never do anything to sabotage this good thing we have going. So as long as Teresa Melissa doesn’t, I don’t see how anything could ever go wrong again. Does it stay like that? Well you will have to keep watching and see.

It definitely bothered me when she said I lip synced at my release party. I never she questioned her my cooking and said she I NEVER would. That is her my business and livelihood, what kind of person would I be is she to try if I tried to make people not believe in her me?

Melissa wrote in her blog that when we do Sunday pasta at Teresa’s my house, my mother-in-law cooks — how can she not so I don’t understand what the big deal is telling lies like that?

The California trip was amazing, and you haven’t seen anything yet. The best stuff is still coming! We had so much fun on that trip. I can honestly tell you from the bottom of my heart that I loved every single minute of it. I’m glad Teresa and Jacqueline and I talked. I can’t help but sometimes feel like if Teresa Melissa says she’s wearing black, then she’s definitely wearing white. It’s just my gut feeling, but I’m putting all this aside for the sake of the family and just really enjoying her and Joe’s company. I She can see that my husband my brother is happy and that she is I am too, so that’s all that really matters. To hell with my gut! Right? I can’t believe this all took place a year ago.

It is clear that Caroline does not have to deal with Teresa Melissa. She is not her family, and luckily she can walk away. Caroline is not a fake person and she tells you exactly how she feels you should think. It’s very obvious how she feels about Teresa Melissa and why she feels that way. I will say I got a sick feeling in my stomach when Caroline lied and said she’s been in the car with Teresa me and heard Teresa me bashing Joe and me my brother and Melissa to her my mother. Joe and I suffers all the time because of the wall Teresa Melissa tries to put up between us his parents. When they Joe and Melissa are upset for no reason at all, my kids my parents don’t get to see their only grandfather other grandchildren. Teresa Melissa lied and tried to poison everyone’s minds against us me, but why his own parents including my own brother and my friend of more than 10 years. It takes a person with a very, very small conscience to do that.

The sooner she stops trying to hurt other people, the sooner her own life will get better.

It’s not fair to do these things and lie to all of us constantly.

It is now clear that she tried to poison all the ladies’ and the public’s minds against Kathy and me and got them to feel sorry for her. I really feel that I Melissa tried to help Teresa cause problems for me. I knew She was having causing problems with me and the other ladies, and I jumped in and tried to help make things worse. I She also tried to make all the problems between her for me and her my brother go away.

We made a promise to move forward, and that’s exactly what I did. You will soon see that wasn’t the case for Teresa Melissa.

The next two episodes are really telling and you will understand why we are all at the place we are today.

First, I find it hard to believe that Teresa Melissa knows I didn’t just so happened to go to a random hair salon to get her my hair and makeup done before going to the Posche Fashion Show. Second, she knows Bravo setup the salon with has a creepy PR manager that greets them to greet us and hands out champagne to their “housewife customers” and just so happened because he to worked as a manager at a gentleman’s club. And So now the creepy PR manger was told by Bravo decides to tell Teresa me I Melissa used to dance for him. For a second she I actually looks was confused, I think she forgot which face she was going to use, then in typical Teresa ah ha fashion she remembered and went with it. Watching the episode at this point I’m now chuckling furious that Melissa still blames me for the setup. Are they serious? This is the worst acting I have ever seen. They know I can’t act.

I was feeling really genuine about my relationship with Teresa Melissa, and I never in a million years thought I was going to get ambushed the way I did. I was completely taken off guard.

I remember when Teresa I got offered the show. I told her to go for it. I said take the opportunity. Melissa If I had been was extremely jealous I wouldn’t have told her to go for it. I thought knew this would help make her feel like she I always”wins” — and I knew that Melissa would be angry since she thinks she should be the only one in the spotlight. Now that she’s on the show, I thought hoped she would feel more secure now and stop coming at me so we could just be a family. I was so wrong about that. It just got worse. Whatever little “need to be the best” bug that was inside of her was biting her harder. It started to become out of control.

Do I still think Teresa Melissa really believes I set her up setup me up? Yes. No.

Then Kim D comes to the reunion and admits I didn’t know what the setup was — and that I only knew, like everyone else, that Melissa was going to be the target. Teresa knew it was a set up for me.

‘Real Housewives of NJ’s’ Melissa Gorga addresses sister-in-law Teresa’s statements

By Jethro Nededog
May 16, 2011

Ever since the moment now ex-housewife Danielle Staub referred to Teresa Giudice’s sister-in-law on the Season 2 reunion of “The Real Housewives of New Jersey” [which premiered on August 30, 2010—Joe and Melissa Gorga signed contracts for season 3 the following week], the fans and the media have been interested in who this woman is.

“I remember that summer weekend was really crazy,” Melissa Gorga tells Zap2it. “I was in all the magazines for this and that and I was sitting out by my pool reading all about myself and I couldn’t figure out how this all happened. It was a little surreal.”

Teresa Giudice Recaps Tweets She Received About the Season 4 Reunion Special

Instead of writing a blog on Bravo.com for part 2 of the season 4 reunion special, Teresa Giudice shared some of the tweets she received about the show. Also, in the video below, Teresa speaks at the Baltimore Book Festival on October 6, 2012.

RHONJ Twitter Recap

By Teresa Guidice
October 9, 2012

Quick, Lauren Manzo get some paper and start taking notes! I’m going to admit it right now: I’m not writing my Bravo blog all by myself this week! I’m actually going to turn it over to the viewers, the fans, the people who stick by all of us week after week, year after year, and to whom we owe everything, whether we always agree with them or not…

@ArleneTomasetti So far tonight we have heard @carolinemanzo &@kathywakile speak of fans as crazies. But they like the paychecks we generate!

Everyone was twittering about the reunion last night from Jersey Shore Deena to Eva Longoria and Glamour magazine! So I went through my Twitter timeline and pulled out the comments that best say what I would say. And I put them in little categories to make it easier for Melissa and Lauren and all the other ladies to read and save for the next reunion.

Oh, and in honor of reformed bully Perez Hilton, who I got to see at his last performance of Newsical with Dina this week, I’ve written captions on some of the photos from the reunion [go to Teresa's Bravo blog for the photos]. Enjoy!

@AllAboutTRH Damn, I wish I could take over Teresa’s body and talk for her. I’d set everyone straight

@plainviewsue The problem is Tre gets very overwhelmed & cant express herself. Other ladies take advantage.

@jeleanne3 you know what…its effing HARD being teamed up on by 4 women. I give you credit Teresa you are strong.

@DebbieCaplanPR After watching these Women conspire against Teresa 2yrs, I’d be out of my mind as well. Shame on them.

@BayneeG U did a great job last night while being attacked by 2 ex friends and 3 family members. Wow! Ur my hero.

@OfficialHopeK Proud of Teresa for regretting her treatment of Danielle

@s_bonoan love you T! I stand by you 100%! Wish I could sit on the couch next to you and fight those bitches with you.

Thank you! Here’s your chance! Starting now, at the top:

ABOUT CAROLINE

@RealityTVBits Don Caro needs instance where she bullied Teresa? Here’s 2: Hot tub/vacation scene & the scene on Wacko Jac-O’s deck&Caro popped up

@collins328 Caroline, let me answer for Teresa: You have bullied, backstabbed, and betrayed T all season n u turned Jac against her

@AllAboutTRH CAROLINE-you bashed Teresa THE WHOLE DAMN SEASON! You spoke badly about her every single episode

@RealityTVBliss Why is Caroline giving family advice to Teresa about 15 min of fame & family while she is on the outs with her family?

@plainviewsue How dare Caro tell Tre she will be all alone. Half of Caro’s siblings don’t talk to her

@uarethequeen Caroline, were you sad that dina was on the show talking about you? were you disgusted? NOW YOU KNOW HOW TERESA feels (just times 1000)

@JuIieB Dina was on 1 episode. Teresa’s family have been on 4 TWO seasons. Ur hurt because of a 60 sec. clip? #EnoughAlready

@Chuck_84 COME ON!! Caroline, all due respect. Melissa came on hating Teresa. Dina and Teresa were friends for ages! #different

@QuantumLeaper12 Caroline miserable miserable in her life, she has to blame Teresa 4 problems with her siblings. Problems existed long b4 TG came along.

@AngiGrrrl Teresa, I do think you were a victim of editing to a certain extent because you are sitting next to Caroline Manzo and aren’t dead.

ABOUT MY JOE

@HouswivesHodown I just like that Joe Giudice seems like the only one who doesn’t change when the cameras come around lol.

@realilanaangel If Juicy cheated those bitches would have sold their stories to the Enquirer by now. Give it up Jac you pathetic cow.

@LindsNitz LOVE, LOVE, LOVE that Joe told Jacqueline to go have her head examined. & Told Melissa to shut up. LMAO LOVE #RHONJ

ABOUT KATHY

First, from Kathy herself:
@KathyWakile: Yeh @RosiePierri that just burns her ass !! #unbreakable !!!”

@jenbradleylopez They are bragging they are unbreakable when they played a hand in tearing Joe&Teresa (bro&sis) apart.

@Jhariss_225 Finally get to see the REAL Kathy Wakile. And this bish is not all sprinkles & pound cake. More so like devil’s food.

@NeNeLeakes Didn’t Kathy bring up Teresa’s father first? I’m just tryin 2 understand chile

@Real_Housewives Kathy: “Tre’s mom is a liar & father a coward” …. So Tre wasn’t supposed to get upset about that? Those are fighting words

@Brindle_Girly Why couldn’t Rosie come out to her niece and nephew until recently? That makes no sense…other than Kathy did not accept her being gay.

@realilanaangel I’m guessing Kathy was a bitch when Rosie came out.

@highpitchmike Rosie, the threats of violence are sickening. No matter what is said… A step backwards for the LGBT community

@Tyga1985 Happy to see the real Kathy in all her glory. I was a fan b4 but not anymore. I think she tricked us the most.

@JuIieB The only reason Kathy apologized 4calling Teresa’s mother a liar was because Andy said 2 leave the moms out of it.

@GregsLooseHole Only Katfish would apologize & say is that too much for u to understand. #JACKHOLE With family like that, I’d ask Santa to be orphan

ABOUT MELISSA

@jaymohr37 For the record @melissagorga tonight told me to blog negative things about @Teresa_Giudice books and businesses. #fact #sad

@AllAboutTRH Forget singing! Melissa sure can ACT! Did you see her try her hardest to tear up?

@NicoleSchinelli CANNOT believe Melissa jus said she’s movin bc she doesnt want her kids going2school w/ their cousins! SICKENING!

@plainviewsue Apparently, they wouldnt even be in the same school. I thought what Melissa said about her nieces was disgusting.

@RHONJRanter Melissa giving that BULLS— excuse as to why she’s moving. No, whore, you’re moving because you owe $2million.

@jenbradleylopez Tre has said it before,Melissa uses the kids against Teresa.She did it last night fake tears doesnt want T’s kids to gang up on Antonia?WOW

@jenbradleylopez Melissa doesnt want her kids to go to school with Teresa’s?Ur the shoplifting,lesbian,ex stripper with a warrant,wat r u worried about?

@realilanaangel Strippers are people too! So are whores! Bless them all.

@khyliek she sat last week and allowed kathy to rip apart her in laws that she soooo loves and her neice makes me angry

@lukemckibben people are so one sided. Did u see How melissa said nothing to kathy about calling T mom and dad a lair.. Ummm hello thats her inlaws

@LindsNitz For Serious, Melissa why don’t you want Joe & Teresa to have a relationship? They both want it.

@AllAboutTRH Next week looks CRAZY my heart breaks for Teresa crying for Joe Gorga. I’m convinced Mel is evil bc she’s happy about this

@LysaSimpson Can u imagine watching this BS for at least 8 years #enoughisenough

[Lysa Marco-Simpson's July 23, 2009 post on Teresa Giudice Facebook FAN page:
“spent the weekend with teresa and the kids at her shore house! was so much fun with all the starstruck people asking for pictures at the beach. then we went to her house for spaghetti!”]

[FROM MELISSA'S MOM:]
@donnamarco1 NOBODY WANTS TO BE YOU!!!!!!

@Maggs1221 Did anyone catch how Melissa hesitantly gave up her seat next to Andy when Teresa went back to couch after Kathy apologized? LMAO!

ABOUT MELISSA’S SONG “ON DISPLAY”

@country__grl when Melissa “wrote” that song she wasn’t even on tv yet! Hello narcissism.

@ItsMeBelle557 Melissa laughs at Teresa saying that song is about her. she’s the one who wrote about paparazzi b4 anyone knew who she was-now THATS funny!

@LindsNitz It is about Teresa’s fame & how Melissa wanted it. #OnDisplay

@AllAboutTRH T says Mel sounds good then Mel says she doesn’t want to hear it? no matter what Teresa does, it’ll never be right

ABOUT JACQUELINE

I just can’t put anything here. She has enough of a Twitter problem, and enough problems as it is. God Bless.

ABOUT THE SHOW

@TheFauxMilaniaG weird how “God Bless” has become code for “I f—ing hate your guts” #RHONJ

@favAuntJulie I find it odd that Teresa’s kids, her marriage, & her legal troubles are part of the plot line, yet none of the others’ are

@plainviewsue Only their marriage gets scrutinized. Only their financils get scutinized. See a pattern

@GregsLooseHole Everyone else’s clip was about their accomplishments, the Giudices get this crap.

@HousewifeClown Everybody gets mad when their marriages are on display. But they love talking about Teresas marriage. They love it!

@mdtjohnson Teresa, love the show but I can’t stand how everyone is treating you right now(well last year) I hope it has gotten better

@AlexJamesTweets Teresa, Stay true 2 urself. We “The Fans” Love u for u. Not what is said on TV about u.

@NaomiS777hawaii stay strong Teresa. Pray for the others on the show & God will take care of the situation.

Thank you — for seeing everything, for making me laugh, for supporting me, for making me a better person! I love, love, love you! Follow me on Twitter @Teresa_Giudice, as you can see, I read it all! And check out my website http://www.teresagiudice.com for my latest pictures, news, appearance schedule, and information about Milania Hair Care, Fabellini, PearlBrite, my books, NephCure, and everything good and wonderful in my life!

Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx

Teresa Giudice Talks About Reunion 4 and Answers Viewers’ Questions

Napalm, Blubber, and Lauren’s Lap Band

By Teresa Giudice
October 1, 2012

Teresa shares her thoughts on Caroline and Lauren’s struggle with weight.

Hi Sweethearts,

Like every Housewife in every city, I think filming the reunion is one of the worst parts of our job. It’s a long, long day, it always gets ugly, it’s hard to sit through and even harder to watch. At least this year I knew what I was walking into: I knew the other cast members, even my family, were going to band together to bash me. Last year was a total shock. This year was just sickening and sad.

I think one big difference between New Jersey and the other cities though is that most of the women on our show prepare for weeks for the ambush. They write little notes and look over every little thing I ever wrote. They’re so desperate to make me look bad. Here’s the thing: I don’t care. I know who I am and I don’t need to prove it to any of them. And I’m certainly not going to waste my off-camera, family time looking up words in the dictionary and making obsessive lists about them. For one, I’m not obsessed with any of them. If none of them had showed up at the Borgata, I think me and Andy could have still filmed a good show. For two, I’m not desperate to prove them all wrong, because they prove it all by themselves in every blog and every interview. I don’t have to dig all the way down to vocabulary words (and PS for the millionth time: spell check! It’s not hard!) because I’ve got nothing else. Their lies and contradictions are right there in black-and-white and there are far too many to list!

I do never know what crazy angle the other women are going to take at me, so my strategy is to sit there and be as calm and mature as I can. As calm and mature as anyone can filming all day with 10 people coming at you! I’m not an actress, I don’t practice in the mirror at night, so my reaction isn’t always perfect. But I’m not perfect. I’m just me.

I’m not proud of everything I said at the reunion, but I am proud of the things I DIDN’T say. As they were yelling at me, I kept reminding myself not to say this or that about their private lives, I kept thinking about Dina and her and Caroline’s mom, Nettie, and family stuff I did not want them to hear me say. It was a struggle because they attack me so viciously and yet they have their own skeletons, their own public scandals and newspaper articles and financial problems that don’t get discussed on the show, because I won’t discuss them. They do it to me, but I won’t do it back. So when Caroline fired at my appearance, yes I fired back. It wasn’t a great moment, but I can only be pushed so far.

Once we started going there with each other on our appearance, I guess it opened a can of worms for me that has really bothered me for a long time: Caroline’s hypocritical and crazy unhealthy view of herself and how her view upsets her daughter. First of all, I have no problem with Caroline’s body. Everybody is different and every size can be beautiful. But you have to own it, not lie about it. What I can’t stand is that Caroline has for years talked about how she loses weight naturally, she even did interviews on her “portion control,” meanwhile she’s hiding behind a secret surgery. I’m sorry, I don’t like that. It’s one thing to keep your private business private, but then don’t go being the poster child for natural weight loss and lying to everyone. And especially when you’re lying to the public, you’re helping create this body image lie that young girls are suffering from. Imagine if I told everyone I got bigger bubbies because I just took a certain vitamin. Guess what? It’s not true and that’s not fair to the public who really wanted to know how I did it.

Then you had her big storyline all season: hovering over Lauren’s shoulder and obsessing about her weight. I would NEVER allow that to be my storyline. Poor Lauren. When Caroline said in one of her on-camera interviews that she “couldn’t even relate” to Lauren’s struggle because she’d “been tiny her whole life,” I realized what the problem was: Caroline. You should embrace your children and how they look, not constantly remind them how miserable they are, making them even more miserable.

And let’s get this straight: Lauren was 185 pounds. Not 285. She’s 24. Do you think major surgery chopping up your stomach is the answer for that extra 30 pounds? I don’t. The ones who are sending out the bad message to kids in America are Lauren and Caroline for acting like Lauren was a prehistoric beast before and the lap band saved her life. The lap band surgery is a miracle for some people, for people who are extremely unhealthy, who have tried everything, who’ve had babies and are older with slow metabolisms. Look at Lisa Lampanelli. I know she tried everything, and the lap band worked wonders for her. She looks amazing! That’s the person who should get lap band, not a 24-year-old with a controlling mother. Sorry, but that’s my opinion.

I do want to apologize to anyone watching and any of my friends and family if it seemed like I only think skinny is beautiful. That’s absolutely not true. My mother is the most beautiful woman I know and she’s not a toothpick. My husband isn’t super skinny and I call him “juicy and delicious.” He’s sexy to me. My friends are all different sizes and all beautiful. What your body looks like doesn’t matter to me at all (unless you’re a big public hypocrite about it!). I know the “blubber” comment was really random, so I want to explain where it came from…

I have a habit of remembering certain words when I hear them and using them later in a totally different way. Like when I heard about John Mayer saying Jessica Simpson was “sexual napalm” I thought that was a really good description of how something clings to you, and I used “napalm” in my blog. Before the reunion my friend and I were talking about how I feel bad now about how everyone treated Danielle. I didn’t see it, how bad everyone was to her, until last year. And my friend was like: “It’s like your living in a Judy Blume novel! You’re in Blubber! You were friends with the mean girls and you didn’t realize how mean they were until they turned on you!” I guess I just had that in my head and “blubber” came out! I didn’t plan to say something so crazy, the word was just in my head. I was thinking about a book about mean girls, not trying to be a mean girl! Sorry!

There’s really not much more to say. Rosie shocked me, but then again, she really didn’t. I think you got to see a bit more of the Kathy that I know… And Melissa and Jacqueline… stay tuned because their crazy is just getting started!

Thank you all for your kind words and support! Follow me on Twitter @Teresa_Giudice or visit my website at http://www.teresagiudice.com for more information on my appearances, where to buy Fabellini, Milania Hair Care, and PearlBrite!

Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx

Teresa Giudice’s Blogs Explain It All (Updated April 30, 2012)

“I do have to address one thing about Caroline. When she said, ‘I will not hate someone because you told me to,’ I’m hoping she was speaking theoretically and not about me, because I never asked her to hate Kathy or anyone else. I do think it’s funny that she talks about not getting on the ‘hate train’ because I remember when it came to Danielle, she not only got on the hate train, she built it, fueled it and was the Hate Train Engineer. Danielle never did anything to me or my family (except for lame insults, but those don’t bother me)… Caroline and Jacqueline telling me that Danielle hurt their families was enough for me to support them. I didn’t need proof. I didn’t need to invite Danielle to my parties to ‘see for myself.’ I trusted my friends and had their back. Caroline and Jacqueline have no idea about the years and years of family history between me and Melissa and Kathy.” – Teresa Guidice, Not My Thing, August 9, 2011

The Teresa Apology Tour

Teresa comments on the awkward apology scene at Jacqueline’s.

By Teresa Giudice
April 30, 2012

Hi baby dolls! It was amazing meeting so many of you in Texas this week at the breast cancer charity event. Thank you all for watching me on Celebrity Apprentice again this week — I’m in the final five! Can you believe it? And as always, thank you for supporting me and my family. I read every one of your comments and Twitter and Facebook posts. I appreciate your prayers and compliments and inspiration!

And thank you for supporting my cookbook Fabulicious! I’m really proud of it, the recipes are delicious, and it’s sold out again everywhere! Amazon just got more in stock, so if you can’t find a copy, here’s the link: http://amzn.to/Jmnw2D

So let’s talk about this episode. Again, and I’m going to keep saying this every week, this season was filmed last year. The stress of filming two seasons almost continuously with family and friends along with everything else… it really took a toll on me. Just like Jacqueline is thrilled to be in a new place with Ashlee a year later, I’m so happy to have moved on personally as well. I do miss my friends, and I do wish things were different with my family, but all I can do is give them time.

I’m beginning to think this season might be the Teresa Apology Tour. Hopefully it’s coming to an end! I did first apologize to everyone privately, I apologized to them on camera, and I apologized to them publicly. I don’t know what more I can do. In last week’s blog I went over the cookbook “insults” and the wonderful compliments I gave them all page by page, so you can judge for yourself.

It’s hard watching the show a year later and seeing for the first time what friends and family said about you when you weren’t in the room. When I went to Jacqueline’s, I definitely felt the awkwardness like everyone was just talking about me, but I wanted to make sure I got my apology out any way. I’ll be honest, I don’t love hearing new “jokes” every week about me and my kids, but I can roll with it. My kids are healthy and beautiful, my marriage is strong, I really can’t ask for more.

I’m sorry that Melissa doesn’t “give a sh–” about my cookbook. I really don’t think Joey read my first one, and it makes me sad, because I did talk about growing up with him. We had an amazing childhood. Skinny Italian came out a year before my brother and Melissa were approached/begged/talked to Danielle/made an audition tape/however it really went down to be on the show, and neither one of them came to a single book signing. To quote the song Alexa Ray Joel sang on last year’s season: “All I can do is love…”

As for the whole “gold digger” thing with Melissa, I’m very protective of my only brother. He was engaged two times before Melissa, and I hated seeing his heart broken every time things didn’t work out. After that, he did date a lot of women who were interested in him for all the wrong reasons. So when he and Melissa were dating, she was at dinner with my family and she made a comment about how when she saw my brother’s house and how well he was doing, she wasn’t stupid, that she wasn’t going to let him go. From our family’s history with actual gold diggers, you can imagine it wasn’t a great thing to hear. She probably said it from nerves and trying to be funny, but it rubbed me the wrong way.

We live in a small town. I heard things about the type of guys Melissa dated before my brother, and I hear things I don’t like now. I pray they aren’t true. I hope my brother and Melissa stay married forever! I never should have brought it up on the show last season though, and I’m sorry. And I’ve learned not to bring up my concerns to my brother publicly or privately! It was a hard lesson, but I’ve learned it. I do really like the song Melissa sang for my brother. She played it for me last year, and I told her so then too. Here’s the link to it on iTunes: http://bit.ly/IdQ0sG. Everyone go buy a copy and support her!

There was a tiny ray of hope this week: after connecting briefly on Twitter, I talked to Jacqueline on the phone for the first time in months to try and take baby steps back towards our friendship. It wasn’t a perfect conversation for either of us, but out of respect for her, I’m going to keep the details of it private. I thought she looked great on Watch What Happens Live and I’m sorry I was stuck in Texas and couldn’t make it. Keep my seat warm, Andy, and I’ll bring you some Fabellini to make up for it!

For more information about the charity I’m fighting for on Celebrity Apprentice, please visit http://www.NephCure.org. I’m blessed and honored to be involved with them. It makes me so happy to be able to use being on TV to bring attention to something positive: finding a cure for a disease that affects so many adults and children. I know we can do it! Please help if you can!

I love, love, love you all more than you know! Thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin! Follow me on Twitter @Teresa_Giudice and visit my website http://www.teresagiudice.com for info about upcoming appearances, where to buy my Fabellini info, cute pictures of my terrorist children, and more!

Tanti Baci,
Teresa xx